Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 09:48 AM EST [
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James and I met the summer of 2000 and I could NOT stand this man... By the Summer of 2004 I was in LOVE and felt like I have never felt before. He was such a kind, loving, caring man and one I KNEW was going to be in my life forever... How could I feel this way about a man that 4 years ago I could NOT stand to be in the same room with????
I knew that James was a hard working, man that took care of me like no one ever did. I woke up in the morning to fresh flowers, hugs and kisses... I went for walks with this man that would NOT allow me to walk on the outside of him for if a car swerved and went onto the side walk he wanted to be hit, and to save me... He held my hand as we walked and always opened my door. He prefered that he cook and I do the dishes as he was a Puerto Rican Man and he LOVED to cook... He took care of our home and our yard and NEVER asked me for a thing. This was strange to me as every man I dated before I had to do it all..... This whole relationship was soemthing new to me and something that I believed was unture or too good to be true. I knew when I came home that Friday night and he was sitting on our front stoop something was up. His smile was HUGE and he had a look in his eye that I had NEVER seen before, LOVE, it was LOVE and I Loved him back. He asked me to marry him this night. He called my father and told him that he loved me and wanted me to be with him till the day he died. How was I to know that it would be such a short time later.
When I got sick he sat at my hosital bed and poured me glasses of water and he read to me, stoking my hair making me feel like EVERYTHING would be alright. He brought me home from the hospital after my hysterectomy and would NOT even let me do the dishes. HE insisted that I stay in bed and let him take care of me. He drove me to my doctor appts and listen to everything the doctor had to say. When I felt that I was NOT A WHOLE WOMAN any longer, he looked deep into my eyes and told me that he did NOT care that i could NEVER have his child as he was fine with it, he already had children and he said that I would ALWAYS be a mother to them...he held me at night and always told me he loved me and that he felt that he was not deserving of my love.
One day I woke up and things had changed. James had fallen from a buidling and had seen a doctor who prescribed him methadone and Xanax, the Methadone for pain and the Xanax for sleeping. Well within 24 hours after he got the medications, I found my love, my soulmate, my "Twin Flame" dead on our floor. I will NEVER forget that day. My soulmate was taken away never to return. That is not completely true. James does visit me and brings me flowers and kisses my head adn tells me that he will always love me and shows me how much when he comes to me in my dreams or visits me when I am sitting doing readings for others he helps to guide me. He is such a help to help me get through this. I miss him so very much and I KNOW that it has been over 2 years since James died, but it feels like yesterday to me...
I love you James Cruz always and Forever my heart and soul to you.
Tricia Ann
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